Monday, June 29, 2009

Maybe it's the blood...

I did my first extraction today, 37, it was exhilarating. There's just something about the surgery department that makes me feel awesome. Maybe it's the blood, the pain numbing or the inability to feel pain or the screaming or the feeling of being in control..whatever it is I love it there!

Anyway the Question of the week is-if you could drink from the fountain of youth and become immortal, would you?

My first thought was dam no way! I have a troubled youth and I want to grow out of it soon.
Being immortal sounds weird unnatural and well weird!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

MJ

He's moon walking on the clouds now. R.i.p. MJ

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Guess how much I love you…

A friend of mine wrote this. She's 15 and her younger sister sumaikah is 4!


Guess how much I love you…
(A conversation between Sumaikah and I before she would go to bed)


Sumaikah was going to bed, held on tight to my right hand.

She wanted to be sure that I was listening. “Guess how much I love you,” she said.
"Oh, I don’t think I could guess that,” I said to her.

“This much,” said Sumaikah, stretching out her arms as wide as they could go.
I had even longer arms. “But I love you this much,” I said.

Hmm, that is a lot, thought Sumaikah.

“I love you as high as I can reach,” Sumaikah said to me.
“I love you as high as I can reach,” I said to her.

That is very high, thought Sumaikah. I wish I had arms like that.

Then Sumaikah had a good idea. She tumbled upside down against the door and reached
the knob of the door with her feet. “I love you all the way up to my toes!” she said.
"And I love you all the way up to your toes,” I said to her swinging her up almost over
her head.

“I love you as high as I can jump!” laughed Sumaikah up and down.
"But I love you as high as I can jump,” I smiled and jumped so high that my hands almost touched the fan above.

That’s good jumping, she thought. I wish I could jump like that.

"I love you all the way down the lane as far as the river,” she said.
"I love you across the river and over the hills,” I said to her smiling.

That’s very far, thought Sumaikah. She was almost too sleepy to think anymore.
Then she looked beyond the window and the trees, out into the big dark night.
Nothing could be farther than the sky.

"I love you right up to the moon,” she said and closed her eyes.
"Oh, that’s far,” said I. “That is very far.”

I settled her into her bed, leaned over and kissed her goodnight.
Then I lay down close by and whispered with a smile, “I love you right up to the moon- and back.”





(:

Saturday, June 20, 2009

All mysteries aside there was a truth outside

Well it's a quiet time in all of sport right now- well the sports that interest me anyway. Football is pretty over well club football is, but when it's off tv for the summer I find myself very very bored, so I've been watching the Confederations Cup and Under 21 European Championship and cricket which surprisingly is making me very happy mainly because pakistan is winning so yay =)

I went back to football despite the knee injury. And yes I didn't make the playing 11 for the first time in 5 years I will be on the bench =(. It's pretty sad but like Hina put it, It is school and career for me before football. I wish it wasn't. It's frustrating. I've been there and I've dealt with it before.I Still do feel like I can.It's getting tougher by the day and it's pissing me off. But, it's much more satisfying to achieve something when the climb has been so difficult, when you really have to work to get there. I've done it before with things, I can do it again. I just need better focus.

Besides that Not too much going on here, just more of the same. Weeds is back on air which is good because hands down it's one of my favorite shows.

The other day Saru said I fish for compliments, made me think and I realized she's kind of right.Sometimes I do manipulate the situation to try and get the compliment I want to hear. Pretty twisted huh?

She also said that christina and meredith from grey's remind her of us. I went off on her because I honestly am not as heartless as chritina yang on grey's and fuck that's just a character on a dumb TV show. Ok I'm a little like her but I'm changing I'm trying to control things I know are wrong with me, an example being that when I was younger I had a real short temper, and now I am really quite mellow about things. I don't go off on people a lot.

So it made me think and I was reflecting on the person I am now, to how I was a month ago, 6 months ago, 1 year ago, etc. and I'm clearly quite a changed person. For the good or the bad I'm not quite sure but for now I'm working on all that is wrong!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Does This Lack of Updating Make Me Look Like A Really Important Person??

Does This Lack of Updating Make Me Look Like A Really Important Person?.. I certainly hope so :p
All shit's been far too busy.
Between tests and clinical exams and presentations and symposiums and trying to reconnect with saru and failing miserably and football I haven't had a chance to sit down and just be here and write. And the god honest truth is I don't really know what to write about anymore. I don't feel like whinning anymore because that wasn't helping.

In updates federer won the french open. For those of you who read you might remember that i wrote something when he lost the Australian open so yeh I have to write an entry on him winning this one definitely and that is to come.

ummm... Manchester United lost the champions league final and an entry on that also is due. But now if I write it it'll seem stupid but I'll do it anyway.

I have developed a keen interest in poker and actually become good at it.

My knee is doing ok for now. I have been forbidden to play football which sucks! But im going to play anyway!

And that is that. I will be back with a lot of stuff later for sure!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

patella femoral pain syndrome

Patello femoral pain syndrome (PFPS) is an extremely common condition, covering a range of usually vague symptoms of pain ‘in’, ‘under’ or ‘behind’ the kneecap.
and yes I am suffering from it.
I got injured 2 years ago while playing football and my knee has bothered me since then but i never really paid any attention to it. 2 nights ago I woke up in the middle of my sleep because of intense pain in my left knee and spend the entire night at the hospital. Got my MRI's, Xrays done and finally found out I have PFPS. What basically is happening is that there is extra pressure between the patella and the femur during knee flexion and there is friction between the two which causes pain.
For now therapy and NSAID's will do but if it isn't resolved I might require surgery which could be the coolest thing that will happen to me in quite some time :P