Gotta cut away, clear away, snip away & sever this

Sleep would be nice so would exercise. It's pouring down here. Karachi has had the best year weather wise! I'm loving it:)

I feel a bit like a failure these days, with not going back to a "real" school. I see so many people heading back to their big universities and new towns with new friends for a fresh new year and I can't help but want that.

I'm studying a lot these days hence no time to write.
Football has started again. We watched the arsenal man u match on Saturday and that was fun. There's just something about Manchester united beating arsenal. Gives me pleasure. Great pleasure. So anyway after that we spent the night at hina's. We were up all night playing cricket,football and doing retarded crazy shit! Fun times.Memories indeed.

Memories are powerful, especially when you're transported back to how you felt in those moments. No wonder I am still awake. Good or bad, I'm thankful to be able to have moments like that.

'Your absence leads me down darker paths!'

Teacher.. finally..

And back to reality.. We finally got a surgery teacher.. she taught us appendicitis and well I understood it. Things are looking up. OPD had ended its back to ot i.e. hell hole. But in the past 2 weeks I've only gone to school twice. Been home studying, hanging out, watching movies. Life is good =) And it'll only get better.

I have a good feeling about the other half of this year. =) Vacations did me good. I cleared my head, got off the shit wagon. Now I'm studying, getting work done at school and not being gay about my relationships and friendships. Being a grown up and facing things head on!

Oral pathology is almost done. Half of general medicine done. 1/4th of perio done and half of oral medicine done.The only thing left worrying me is general surgery. The nerd in me is back :D

It's so hard to contain, maintain it or define it...

Does love really last or eventually do we simply grow tired of the, I dare say , of just being happy just being whatever we have become just being with that one same person.

'it's hard not seeing you everyday, not talking to you, not laughing with you.. but somehow it gets worse when I do see you'

The tragedy is not that I cannot feel, but that , I am forever searching, whether or not I'm aware of it. Am I actually looking for something or am I running from what is known and consequently real?

You will always be that one that has the ability to come rushing back,at random and bring me to my knees because somewhere inside I know it’s what I’ve always wanted.The perpetual sense of always is overwhelming.

I am uncertain if I regret. But there are so many memories, so many broken promises and laughter's and tears and fights so many times, so many glances of your face, threatening to consume me completely. So there are days when I break down and I admit you are my one true love. And I will always always love you. It crushes my insides, burns me from within. But its real or real enough i guess.

It could've been us.

???? :@

'u r the most pettiest self obsessive sarcasmic, vindictive, pusillanimous, pedophilic, infanticidal, eczemic bitch i've ever met'

that's what shahzeem once said to me. How i remember this.. well i still had the message in my inbox :s

We're all we need two lungs one heart

It's been a while since I last wrote here, by my standards anyway. I've just been in a bit of a funk really and not had any motivation whatsoever to write in here.

I've been busy with studying.. yes I finally am studying. Not that anyone cares but I've dont GIT,liver and CVS from general medicine which is quite a lot. And inshAllah by the end of next week I'll do a lot of oral path and oral med so ya things will be back on track.
In other news I finally finished it's always sunny in philadelphia. Had that show on pending for so long.

And finally for the question thats been on my head for well years but was highlighted again in an outing.
How many of you believe in the institution of marriage and that whole spend the rest of your life with one person crap?