Misplaced agression

I'm so tired of all the bitching I've been doing lately. But that's really how i feel.

I can't ever feel more alone. I honestly cant. I thought this year would be better. I'm hanging my head and I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming and I'm wishing. I'm a wreck.
I'm sick of all these times, all these let downs. I don't want to go back to school because it'll just hurt more. I don't want to look around and not see the familiar faces. I don't want to be buried under those expectations again. I don't want to mingle with people who aren't my friends, I fucking don't. I cant and I don't want to.

This is crazy to admit. I lost it all. I gave it my all. My magic is gone.
I don't even know where the fuck all this is coming from!